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I have only one true fear—that I won’t ever be able to find you.

While I fear that circumstance may not be on our side, above all, I fear that I won’t be prepared enough. I fear that I won’t be able to be the person you need me to be.

I can hide behind logic, behind bravado, or behind a façade of nonchalance, but I know all too well the ravenous desire, the desperation that wells up in this heart when faced with the prospect of finally finding love.

But so as long as I remember that this is not a war between the mind and the heart, and I can learn to embrace this desire, guiding it along in some way that I can make sense of, I need not worry. Only then, where there is fear, there is also hope. Where there is pain, there is also redemption.