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5 essays on suffering

Lessons Learned

Posted on Wednesday, May 24, 2023

Last updated on Saturday, August 15, 2026 at 4:27 PM

·5 min read

When there were hundreds of millions of people who lost everything in all the horrific wars of the last century, why do we in the present day lay complacent? Why do we continue to perpetuate hate, intolerance, and violence in our world when they are the indisputable root cause of such catastrophes and atrocities? Why do we persist in this ambivalence about the nature of right and wrong, when, for…

Paradoxes of the Human Condition

Posted on Wednesday, April 12, 2023

Last updated on Saturday, August 15, 2026 at 4:27 PM

·3 min read

Happiness cannot exist without suffering, joy cannot exist without pain, learning cannot exist without mistakes, success cannot exist without failure, excitement cannot exist without tedium, yet we balk and groan when we are forced to confront the latter. It is almost a universal rule that everything in our lives, whether a certain type of food, a certain type of work, a certain type of leisure…

Detached

Posted on Wednesday, March 22, 2023

Last updated on Wednesday, August 19, 2026 at 2:23 PM

·11 min read

> Snow covered the ground, and once again the green lights shined upon me as I went to sit on the cold bench. I sat there for a good hour or so, just mourning the death of my positive-thinking mind. I didn't know what to do to make my life better again, when I would be motivated to do my work, pursue a dream, and wake up with something to look forward to in the day. I was lonely, and I wasn't…

Everything’s going to be okay.

Posted on Thursday, January 5, 2023

Last updated on Saturday, August 15, 2026 at 4:27 PM

·2 min read

Until it isn’t. Until "okay" just isn't sufficient anymore. There's seemingly nothing wrong with this self-assurance; if it calms you, if it brings you peace, if it’s enough to save your life, and you can think of nothing better to say, then let it help you. Because the truth is, things will be "okay" most of the time. Despite what we might perceive as tumultuous life circumstances, we always…

Suffering

Posted on Friday, December 30, 2022

Last updated on Saturday, August 15, 2026 at 4:27 PM

·5 min read

I typically don’t care when people deny the existence of God; I question it myself even. Though there's this particular argument that irks me; atheists and Christians often wrestle over the concept of why there’s so much suffering in the world, despite the supposed existence of an altruistic higher being. The atheist is naive for thinking that the existence of suffering disproves the existence of…

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